About

When I was young, I felt like there was something wrong with me, that I was inherently bad.

According to my mother I was born stressed and anxious. I now believe this was due to a combination of reasons; my mother’s stress during pregnancy, inherited transgenerational trauma and trauma from past my lives.

Around the ages of 7-9 years old, I experienced several significant traumas, including sexual abuse and bullying. These experiences caused me to suppress ‘negative’ emotions causing energetic blocks in my body and to form negative beliefs about myself and the world around me. Some of the beliefs I formed were; I’m not safe, I‘m not worthy, there is something wrong with me, the world isn’t a safe place, and people can’t be trusted.

When out in the world I managed my fear and anxiety by staying quiet, avoiding confrontation, and by not asking questions. My main aim was to get through the day with as few people noticing me as possible. If I was invisible, no one could hurt me or cause me any further pain. I was easily triggered and emotionally overwhelmed, and my stress would often manifest as stomach aches and insomnia. I became hypervigilant, disassociated, and disconnected from my body and my authentic self. I coped by shutting down parts of myself, suppressing my emotions and burying my trauma in the deep recesses of my mind.

Whilst living in London, around the age of 24, the trauma I thought I had done so well to bury for 15 years, started to raise its ugly head. I felt overwhelmed, flat and depressed so I went to see a fancy GP. She diagnosed me with depression and wrote me a script for anti-depressants and sent me on my way. Upon leaving her office I threw the script in the rubbish bin. I knew there must be another way…I just hadn’t discovered what that was yet.

At the age of 25, I left London and moved to Auckland New Zealand, where I managed the branch office of a software company. On the outside I looked the epitome of success for my age; I drove a nice car, dined in fancy restaurants, and holidayed in Fiji. However, I felt empty and spent my weekends trying to fill the void inside of me with alcohol, men and shopping. I remember driving along one day thinking “Is this it? There must be more to life?”

At the age of 28, after living in NZ for 3 years, I had a physical and mental breakdown (or you could say breakthrough). The effects of suppressing my trauma for the past 20 years had finally caught up with me. I had debilitating fatigue and struggled to get out of bed in the morning. Once I did manage to get out of bed and drag myself around, I would burst into tears at the drop of a hat. I was suffering from adrenal fatigue, anxiety, insomnia, complex ptsd, depression and hypothyroidism. Basically, I was a mess! 😉 Upon the recommendation of my flatmate, I went to see a Naturopath. This was a major turning point in my life, as not only did it transform my heath but also my life.  I was so inspired by this Naturopath, I decided to follow in her footsteps and study Naturopathy.

I quit my job, left NZ and flew to Sydney and enrolled in Naturopathy. I started eating healthier, taking herbal medicine, running, hiking, swimming in the ocean and doing yoga. My body slowly started to recover. However, it wasn’t until I discovered the transformative powers of energy healing, reiki, psychotherapy, regression, and hypnosis that my trauma really started to heal on a deeper level.

Over the years, I have been diagnosed with the following conditions, which I believe are the result of childhood trauma and chronic stress: Asthma, Anxiety Disorder, Insomnia, ADHD, Complex PTSD, Depression, HPA Axis Dysregulation/ Adrenal Fatigue, Hypothyroid, IBS, PMS, and Fibrocystic Breast Disease. I also suffered for years from recurrent infections such as bronchitis and cystitis, due to having a suppressed immune system from the long-term effects of chronic stress.

Over the years; with the help from many amazing practitioners, holistic healing modalities and natural therapies, I have healed from Asthma, Anxiety Disorder, Depression, HPA Axis Dysregulation/ Adrenal Fatigue, Hypothyroid, IBS, and PMS. I continue to heal from the more chronic conditions of ADHD and  Complex PTSD.

Today, my immune system is strong, and I very rarely get sick. I am no longer disassociated. I am grounded and present (well most of the time) and in my body. I am free from most of the fears and anxieties that used to haunt me. I can still get anxious from time to time and struggle to sleep, but I have the tools to help me get through these moments. 

I have re-wired my brain so that its more positive and optimistic, I have purged  suppressed ‘negative’ emotions and energy blocks from my body, I have re-balanced my HPA Axis, nervous system, and hormones. I have healed my gut and adrenals. I have transformed my negative beliefs and behaviours. I now know that I am worthy, and that I matter. I no longer live in a state of constant fear, anxiety and hypervigilance. I feel safe in my body and in the world. I know whatever happens to me I will be ok. I have a stronger connection to my intuition and can access joy a lot more easily & frequently. I have freedom from my conditioning and can live life on my own terms. 

Today I am healthy in my mind, body and soul. 

It is from my personal experience of healing and transformation, along with my years of study, that I can offer you genuine help on your journey.